Yesterday’s post wasn’t a Mayhem Monday as is the usual custom around here. A couple of reasons for that: 1. I was eager to share my For Two Fitness® review and get that promo code out there as soon as I could and 2. Knowing that my doctor’s appointment was scheduled for Monday morning, I wanted to be able to give you an update on the goings on in baby department as so many of you have been praying for me and the whole restless legs and sleep issue (thank you from the bottom of my heart for all the prayers, I’m feeling them!).
I went into my appointment on exactly zero hours of sleep. Boo. I went armed with a sleep diary from the last 10 days or so, detailing how well I slept, if I slept and when I slept. I was very disheartened to see that no less than 6 of the past 10 nights have been spent without getting a minute of sleep. The other days, sleep was always less than 4 hours, usually around 3.
Wow. No wonder I look/feel like garbage. No wonder I have zero energy and no wonder those “normal” every day tasks and enjoyments (time with my kids, going for walks, running, writing, crocheting) seem like such mountains to conquer.
I’m not exactly sure what I was expecting to hear. Part of me was hoping for some miraculous cure to end my woes but alas, that’s not the case. We’re going to try one last medication to see if that helps. I was also told that I was no longer to be going to work and that my maternity leave starts right now. I’ve been put on a type of modified bed rest whereas I’m free to do the things I would normally do (exercise, chase the kids, run errands etc) but that the second I felt tired, I’m to rest, lay down, do what I can to conserve energy. There’s no concern with me having the baby early (I have the opposite problem…they don’t like to come out!) but the amount of sleep debt I’m carrying around is off the charts so I’m not going to fight this at all. The boys will be in daycare for another two weeks (up to the day I was originally supposed to start my leave) so I will have plenty of opportunity during the day to rest when I need to.
I’m hoping this is the solution to a very complex problem. I’m not expecting miracles or 8 hours of undisturbed sleep but knowing that I have some quiet time during the day for the next couple of weeks will hopefully help me rest up and prepare for baby. I have very mixed feelings about leaving work so abruptly. It doesn’t sit well with my personality and need to have everything wrapped up neatly and ready to go. I feel like I’m letting my co-workers down and adding to their already stressful days. But at the same time, I realize that I can’t do it all and this is just the way it needs to be.
So welcome to maternity leave 3.0. I’m not sure where it’s going to take me but if last night’s theatrics with the boys is any indication, it will be anything but dull