This has been an interesting week to say the least. I’ve been struggling. A lot. In the past 5 days, 3 of them have been completely without sleep at night. My legs have been getting worse and as tired as I am and as worn out as I am, I just haven’t been able to sleep.
It’s been awful. There is nothing worse than being stuck awake and nearly comatose and not being able to sleep. My poor hubby has been subject to many of my middle of the night break downs. It’s not been pretty.
The decision has mostly been made, to unofficially put me on bed rest until baby comes. Not your typical bed rest but for me to stop working and focus on trying to get as much sleep as I can, when I can. There’s too much concern that I’m going to fall asleep while driving or not have the reflexes needed to react to something. Truthfully, it scares me. A lot. I worry about all that stuff, and I worry about what this lack of sleep could be doing to my baby. It’s not been fun.
I see my doctor next week to go over things and decide on the next steps going forward. She’s well versed in my situation so hopefully we can find a solution that works for everyone. She’s said to stay as active as I can but not to overdue it and only do what I can reasonable do given how run down my body is.
I’m not going to lie, I’m very discouraged and very frustrated because other than the sleep and leg stuff, I feel fine. I can still run, I can still workout. But when you don’t sleep, all that stuff falls to the side because your body is so focused on getting this baby ready that it can’t handle being taxed beyond that.
So the coming weeks will be a challenge for me. I’ll walk as much as I can, run, only if I feel energized and otherwise, it’s a focus on keeping my body well nourished and as well rested as possible for the next 4-5 weeks. At least throughout all this, I can be assured of a few things: It’s only temporary and it is absolutely worth every tear shed, every sleepless night and every frustrating setback to bring this healthy little life into the world.
I just hope he/she makes their grand entrance sooner than later…