This past week was an extremely emotional one for me. We learned that my gran was not well and it would be only a matter of time before she passed. That day came very quickly and this past weekend, my family gathered for a final celebration of her life. It’s been a week full of mixed emotions, tears and reflection.
I also took a very bold step in filming an interview for my church about my battle with Postpartum depression. Now, some of you who have been here for awhile may not think I would need to be bold because I talk very openly about it on this blog. The reality is that it’s much easier to make yourself vulnerable in words than in live image. I can only tell you that I was sweating like I’d just run a marathon doing this interview. I haven’t seen the final product yet and I don’t know that I will be able to sit there and watch myself open up completely about such a difficult time in my life but we will see.
All in all, it was a very emotionally draining week for me. So much so that by the end of it, I wound up with a severe sinus infection that’s pretty much kept me up day and night with very little relief no matter which remedy I try. I’m almost thankful that I didn’t have the time or emotional energy to workout much this week. My body is busy enough preparing itself to give birth at any time and with the emotional stressors at play, I can honestly tell you that I had absolutely nothing left in the tank to give.
This week promises to be better as we finish up some long standing home renovations, finally move into our house (after nearly 8 months of actually living in it) and get a few steps closer to welcoming this little torpedo baby into the world. I’m also kicking off a new series this Friday that I’m hoping will be an ongoing and very fun project.