I’m not going to lie, it’s been a tough week. It was supposed to be a fun, celebratory week for me and hubby and I celebrated 4 years of wedded adventure together. Though we did celebrate and have a nice dinner out together, things have been overshadowed by other events that have occurred in life that were neither expected, nor imagined. As much as we try to continue on as normal, there are moments when eye contact is made and the unspoken is clearly heard between us. Waiting sucks.
But as much as this remains active in my mind, I’m choosing a) not to live these coming weeks in a state of fear, b) not to be shut down by it and c) not to give in to it. I still go to work, I still play with Fit Boy, and I still do what makes me feel best: sweat. Should the worst be true, I am committed to continuing to move forward and not be defined by things I cannot control.
On a completely separate note, I have another, much less heavy dilemma: I signed up for a half marathon back in fall with full intentions of doing tons of running and setting all kinds of world records. Unfortunately, a horrible winter, lots of sickies, some injury and an extreme overestimation of the amount of time I would have to commit to this venture and I’m now 2 weeks away from said race and no where near ready to run. This has me a bit scared. I’ve been swimming weekly since October and doing some cross training but definitely have not put in the miles that I would have liked ahead of time. My farthest distance has been 11.5km, nearly 10k shy of a half distance.
So what should I do? I want to run it but I don’t want to bonk, not finish, get hurt, or finish dead last (emphasis on the dead part). Should I do it? Or should I bow out and try for something in June? I’m really on the fence about it. It would be easier if I was injured, and downright simple if I were prepared.
Open to suggestions…