So as I feared, our breakthrough crib nap was a one and done deal. We tried again the next day (yesterday) and gave up after 45 minutes of screaming, soothing, more screaming and essentially, no sleep. Grrrrrr.
Today was business as usual but my boy was not a happy little man. He slept on and off this morning, never for a very long period of time and always woke up and nursed himself back to sleep. I’m now convinced that I’m doing the total wrong thing by nursing him in bed and lying down with him but I’m at a total loss for what else to do/try. Something seemed off with A. today. He seemed to sleep about as much as he ever does, which admittedly isn’t very much but still enough that he’s somewhat happy for at least a small part of the day. He was very listless this morning and ultra cranky the rest of the day. I left for an appointment for a couple of hours and he screamed for my husband nearly the entire time. Even he got overwhelmed and had to put A. in his crib to get a break. I don’t like that he screamed for my husband but at the same time, maybe it will give him an idea of what I go through for 10 hours every day.
After I got home, we gave A. his bath and tried to put him to bed and he screamed some more. He rarely has any issue going to bed at night but tonight he was having none of it. It broke my heart (as it always does) to hear him cry like that. We’re waiting to see if he’ll settle himself down and sleep. I’m trying not to cry. I hate this. A.’s night routine is the one part of my day that keeps me going. No matter how horrible our day has been or how many hours he’s cried, he’ll sleep at night. If I lose this too, I’m pretty sure I’ll lose the last lingering thread of my sanity. FIngers crossed that this is just A. having a particularly off day.
Tomorrow will be better right?